I know I’m not posting as often as I was back in 2011. Quite a bit has happened in my personal life regarding myself – and my family. My mother had surgery within the last couple of weeks for stage 1 Breast Cancer. We had a Snow and Ice Storm we had to contend with here in NW-Washington. So its been a little crazy. I’m not going to speak too much about what I’m going through personally because – it’s sacred, personal, complicated and concerns some spiritual growth aspects about myself. Just know it’s been consuming a great deal of my time since I got back home here in Washington.
I have wanted to get back into the swing and write as often as I had before, maybe not everyday like last year – but perhaps every other day. I want to try to avoid burn-out again though with what happened with NaNoWriMo toward the end as I was trying to cram in ‘Updates’ about my progress, RP (which is another aspect of writing I enjoy to no end), and work on my novel. The novel isn’t finished but that’s why I was considering doing ‘Every other day’. If I do that – I can save the days I ‘Don’t’ update my blog with working on finishing up the novel. The NaNoWriMo site is going to be offering former participants special info up until a certain point and I want to try to make sure I take advantage of that information before it expires. THAT and I don’t want to forget a scene I’d like to possibly change to keep things interesting with the pacing.
The good news is I have about 15 Drafts sitting in my blogs database with rough outlines ready to be expanded upon. The bad news? Not all of it I can quite grasp how to write about just yet because either it will become too personal or I just don’t have enough info to write about the subject. I rather the information I require than write a poorly written topic that lacks ‘substance’. Substance and passion are two of my big key ingredients when I write. I gotta have both.
Which brings me to something that I often find to be a ‘struggle’ as someone who LOVES to write but wants to avoid the “Me, Me, Me” card while trying to keep up a slightly professional yet casual reader based blog. While I will admit – most of the emotional stuff you will read on my blog is going to be straight from the heart and most likely TRUE for my person, I don’t want to write, “Hey, I get sick of this because” and just turn it into a personal pity party. I’m not one for pity parties and I don’t ever mean to come off ‘sounding’ like it EVER. But there’s been a subject that’s been eating away at the back of my mind and was added today to my Drafts that I was (and still am) struggling with to put together into a cohesive state that doesn’t come off as, “This is so unfair! The world is cruel! You should feel bad for me! Who the heck can I send my personal B***h to!“, because while it IS sort of like that and I’d love more than anything to DO something about it – I’ve NO idea how to do anything about it. All I can think to do is ‘Write’. I feel like – if I at least write about it on a public scale – perhaps the people who it affects most will find it, read it and figure out a way to enact or do something about it. Which would be awesome. But I’m not holding my breath. All I do is pray that my words find the people it’s intended to and imparts what it is meant to.
So I’m hoping instead of THINKING about writing, like I have been, I’ll actually put those thoughts into action and get back into a regular swing of bringing back some interesting topics for discussion again. Which reminds me – I’ve got another Draft outline to write for another topic concerning the Spiritual and religious.
That’s all for now folks! Thank you for reading, positive thoughts and/or possibly prayers. My mother is recovering just fine. 😉
~Love, light, blessings, good fortune and more be yours, Namaste~
- Nano Wrimo Redraft Time (loveofwords52.wordpress.com)
- Breast Cancer Awareness Body Painting Project – Survivor Magazine (thestorybehindthefaces.com)
- Top 10 Breast Cancer Myths You Should Ignore (narsako.wordpress.com)
- ‘Your rash is sunburn,’ said the doctor. But it was breast cancer (dailymail.co.uk)